Wednesday, May 6, 2009

The Problem with Strength...

I’m not a strong as I once was. I am not a sure as I would like to be – as stable as I could be. And I’m trying to decide if this is for the good or for the bad. In some ways it is so important for me to realize just how weak I am. But there is a problem. There is a problem because I used to know I was weak on my own accord but that there was One who I found my strength in. And so I have a problem. A problem because if I’m not as strong as I once was and it is because I’m missing my Strength and not because I have become weak.

Satan doesn’t try and know us down when we’re weak. Although I am currently feeling awfully defeated. But really. Why would he try?? We’re already down! No. Satan knocks us down when we’re strong – to convince us that we are we are weak. To try and prove to us that our stronghold no longer claims the power. To tear us apart when we have everything to give. It is not when we are at our lowest and weakest but when we are strong that we must remember to send Satan to Hell...lest he lead us to believe we are there ourselves.

And so, if I am feeling knocked down, defeated, then perhaps I was once strong. Perhaps once I had something great to give and I had to be stopped before it could be given. I wonder if now that I am weak if I am still capable of giving what is great. Can I ever, again, in the Power of Christ, rise? Am I willing, again, to take claim upon the Strength which can only be made perfect in my weakness?